It’s been a while. I haven’t posted in months. Not to say that I’ve had nothing to write about, let’s just say I was awaiting the outcome of an event before I put finger to smart phone keypad!!
The thing is, the event is now over, it didnt work out how I wanted it to and I’ve spent the last week devastated, defeated and angry at God, the world and myself!
So, what changed? Well, I realised that I’d been planting my Faith in the wrong places. My Faith was in the plans I made, the people who said it would work, the “signs” I was on the right path….everywhere but God. So when these events/plans failed, my Faith went with them. I was left empty and broken.
Today, I made the decision to consciously root my Faith in Christ. To bring all my desires back to the real source. It’s no longer about what I can do, its who He is! I’ve let go of the wheel and taken the back seat, Jesus is in control.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a work in progress. I catch myself back seat driving every now and again but I cant go back to who I was. God said that He’s got this…all I have to do is believe….right?