Today

In pursuit of new life, are we abandoning our present? What are we missing? Why is it that when Jesus gave us the blueprint for prayer, He said that we are to ask the Lord to give us THIS day our daily bread (Matthew 6:11)?

I believe God gives us vision so we know what our destination is but its today were we’ll find what we need to get us there. So often I’ve been knee deep in my hopes for tomorrow that I’ve missed what’s been made available to me today. I’ve been robbed of my joy, sorrowful because I’m not living what I see promised for my future.

Purpose is in the whole journey. There is a bigger picture I don’t always see. A reason why I need to focus in on my today. I want to live a whole life in Christ. Today. Tomorrow. Always.

Purpose

The greatest and most lasting change comes from evolution. Its not a dramatic, overnight event. A change, slowly over generations, will last and last.

It takes quite a bit of discipline to work hard at something that you may not fully enjoy. It’s a selfless act. Much like what Jesus did on the cross. He did not do it for His own benefit. It was an ultimate sacrifice for the good of Gods children from generation to generation.

I’m ready to be a part of historical change. The kind that our children’s children will read about as defining. I want to be a part of revolutionary change. Do my part. Live on and for purpose.

Not now…

God is not slow, He’s patient.

2 Peter 3:9 reads “The Lord is not slow at keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you”

I find myself often screaming “I want it now!!!” I see myself sometimes like one of those children, stamping their feet and waving their fist, demanding at that unbearable pitch, “I want this now, give it to me!” We all know how we feel when we see parents dealing with a demanding child, we feel for them but we expect them as a parent to hold their ground and not give in. They know what’s best, right?

It pains me to say it but God knows best, even when I want what I want but I’m not getting it. He sees the end from my beginning. He is patient with me, even when tears are rolling down my face, He wipes them away, whispers “Not now” and holds me until I rest in the peace of His presence. He loves me beyond how I feel right now because He has prepared a sure future. This is the love that God has for all His children, including me.

Awesome Blogger Award

Special thank you to my BBF (Blogging Best Friend) Ann Bradshaw for this unexpected nomination. Just so you know, I have already bought an outfit to collect my award in style, the speech is also already written! 😜 Thank you Ann for the commitment you’ve made to reflect Christ’s love, you have and will continue to inspire generations through His word.

Check out Ann’s blog at https://thevine.blog/author/annbshaw/

So, here goes, questions answered:

1 What is your country of birth? England

2 Are you married or single? I’m married, currently in our 7th year.

3 Where do you write your blog? I usually write just before I go to sleep, so I’m usually in bed. I write notes on my phone, so sometimes I’ll get a thought and just make a note, this usually happens when I’m walking.

4 How long have you been writing? I’ve been writing pretty much every day since the beginning of 2006 when I started keeping a diary, so that’s about 13 years.

5 What made you start writing? I was stuck. I was looking for some sort of meaning to my life and figured I’d find it if I started writing down my thoughts. Kind of like pouring m&ms in to a bowl to find the blue ones, I wanted to pour myself out to make my purpose visible….I’m still looking for the blue ones!!!

6 How do you choose what to write about? I dont really choose, I just write about what’s going on with me at the time. It could be something personal or an observation, word from God. Life chooses for me.

7 What is your favourite food? Not possible to pick…food as a whole is my favourite! I do have a sweet tooth, I’m also partial to any food that involves some sort of melted cheese.

8 What does Christ mean to you? Everything. It is however a daily struggle between my thoughts aka my flesh and my knowledge of who Christ was, is and will be for me. He is the lover of my soul, I stand because He is holding me up.

9 Where you raised in a Christian household? Yes, but my family was not practising, i.e. we only went to church when my grandmother came to visit. I started going to church for myself after an encounter with my hairdresser. They prayed for me whilst I was getting a relaxer, the rest is history…. I continue to pray that all my family will have a personal relationship with Christ.

10 What name do you call God? Really depends. He is the great “I Am”, so He is what I need, when I need it.To me right now, He is my Father, my protector and comforter.

I know that I am now supposed to list a new set of questions and nominate my favourite bloggers but I just haven’t had the time to 1, write new questions and 2, read a variety of other people’s blogs to even nominate. I am currently hanging my head in shame and hope this does not disqualify me from winning!!! 😊

Letting go of the wheel

It’s been a while. I haven’t posted in months. Not to say that I’ve had nothing to write about, let’s just say I was awaiting the outcome of an event before I put finger to smart phone keypad!!

The thing is, the event is now over, it didnt work out how I wanted it to and I’ve spent the last week devastated, defeated and angry at God, the world and myself!

So, what changed? Well, I realised that I’d been planting my Faith in the wrong places. My Faith was in the plans I made, the people who said it would work, the “signs” I was on the right path….everywhere but God. So when these events/plans failed, my Faith went with them. I was left empty and broken.

Today, I made the decision to consciously root my Faith in Christ. To bring all my desires back to the real source. It’s no longer about what I can do, its who He is! I’ve let go of the wheel and taken the back seat, Jesus is in control.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a work in progress. I catch myself back seat driving every now and again but I cant go back to who I was. God said that He’s got this…all I have to do is believe….right?

New Chapter

I just spent the last few days in sadness. I allowed the pain of all my challenges to get to me and found myself in a spiral of despair and self pity.

Somehow I managed to convince myself that I was justified to feel that pain and that somehow it was the only way to be. I was acting like, if I show God just how much it hurt, it would all somehow change, but that is never the way it works.

God does not react to how we feel, He moves according to His will because in that we will find our victory.

I spent this whole time waiting for joy. It was like I was standing next to the well, with the bucket in my hand, needing water, but still waiting for the rain to fall!! God had already given me all I needed to access joy. It’s with me, it’s in me.

I will draw from this well, that will never run dry. In that, I will find the strength to run the course.

This sad chapter is over, a new chapter of jubilation and celebration is just beginning….

Walking Distance

Simple story. For weeks I’ve been saying that I can’t walk to swimming lessons because it would take me 40 minutes. I was so sure, even though I’ve driven there multiple times, that it would take me 40 minutes.

Today I decided to do it anyway it took me about 20 minutes!! Half the time I thought it would, can you imagine!

This is a lesson. Just when I think that something is beyond what I can do, at that moment, I will decide to do it anyway. I just may be pleasantly surprised! 😮😊